And The Ride Rolls On


The past couple of weeks have been a series of wild ups and downs. Hop on and strap in. I’ll take you through some of the ride.

I got laid off.

DOWN.

I got a new job, which I love.

UP.

Unfortunately, it doesn’t give me enough hours, so I’ll have to add a second night job to make ends meet.

DOWN.

I haven’t completely run out of money, as of yet.

UP.

I had to start a new MS medication and had to spend six hours in an observation room for the first dose, to make sure it didn’t kill me.

DOWN.

It didn’t kill me.

UP.

Jen and I have been on a twenty one day cleanse.

DOWN.

It seems to be helping with my symptoms.

UP.

I feel like I would kill someone for a cheeseburger and a beer.

DOWN.

I’ve found out that I will be attending two weekends this November, out of town for NFL games. One of which is Steelers vs Cowboys in Pittsburgh. (I’ve been a Steelers fan since before I can remember, thanks to my mom, but have never seen them in their home stadium.).

UP.

I can’t afford to contribute much of anything, cash-wise, to either trip.

DOWN.

I have wonderful people in my life who have made it possible to go to both, regardless of my financial state.

UP.

My car is leaking some kind of fluid from the rear near the axle, and the engine light has come on.

DOWN.

It still gets me to work every day, so far.

UP.

Within these few weeks, the third year since my best friend killed himself was marked.

DOWN.

I did not spend the entire day wanting to curl up into a ball, disappearing from the world, for the first time on that date.

UP.

Are you getting motion sickness, yet? Maybe I should have informed all of my readers to take a dose of Dramamine before reading this installment.

It’s been a ride. And that’s just a few weeks worth. Still, I try to concentrate on the positives. It’s really all that one can do. It’s important. If you can’t see and appreciate the good, the bad will consume you. There would be nothing to offset it.

You see, there is an entire community out there that most of you never see. A community of people sharing their difficult experience with a disease that is common in the group. Here on WordPress, I’ve found dozens of others blogging about their experience with MS. Other diseases have their communities as well. There is a difference, though, from the cancer, diabetes, and all the other diseases’ groups compared to the MS groups. This disease is like some demented snow flake. Each person’s symptoms are different from the next. It all depends on what nerves the disease has attacked within the diagnosed individual’s body. I never understood just how different life could be for people with the same disease, until I started reading other sufferer’s blogs. It helps make me see that, even though this has completely turned my life upside-down, I could have it worse. There are some who completely have lost their sight. Others who have no relief from tremors so violent that they can’t even keep food on a utensil. Still others who have lost the ability to control their bladders. And, yes, there are those that most associate with the disease, that have lost the ability to walk under their own power and are confined to a wheelchair.

Now, I know all of these things, and more, could be in my future. But they aren’t here now. I just keep holding on to that fact. I can still drive. I can still see, albeit I need glasses these days. I can still eat a bowl of soup with a spoon. And, thankfully, I can still walk. It’s still a relatively  invisible disease, in my case.

So, for now, I will keep joking around. I will continue to smile and turn my face to the wind with anticipation for tomorrow. I will continue to keep moving forward, hoping for the best. And, yes, like it or not, I will continue to write my experience down, here on this website for you to read. If you wish to, that is.

Well, that’s all that is rolling around in my jostled noggin this week. Hope you are enjoying your weekend, and I’ll see you next time!

 

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